I feel like my life is about to take a huge curve ball. Instead of running in fear from the change. It is time I turn around a hit it. Taking on the chance, taking on the opportunity that has been placed in front of me. In my head i’m convinced I am going to accomplish greatness. Time to put that in the heads of others. The day I do that is the day I am not a figment of my imagination, instead I am the summation of my dreams. So many chances have passed me, I failed. So many opportunities have passed me, I failed. So many gifts have been thrown in front of me, I failed. That changes.

Today.

That awkward moment when you realize you wasted your college career and your body for a shit team at a shit college in a shit state. Im so fucking happy I gave everything I have in order for what? Oh the fact that I can never fucking play soccer again and if I can run again that’ll be a blessing. I gave up having a real college experience in order to play and I have gotten nothing back. The fact that all that I’ve done is for nothing is awesome. Dont even know why im bothering writing this considering it won’t make two fucks worth of a difference. Cause im done and so is my body. Oh but it’s okay cause I get to be an “assistant coach” and by assistant coach I mean bitch. Its awesome. Yet again I will be in the bitch role and run all the errands and do all the behind the scenes shit that no one cares about. seriously fuck this. Story of my fucking life.